Today is A Combination of Both Feelings and Experiences

Have you ever been so....baffuled that all you could do was hit something...but you can't?
I was rushed with an aray of emotions today when I learned that my brother was jumped(of course he was fine)down the street from our house. Imagine my heart sinking; my partner in crime being hit in the jaw.

Never in my life have I wanted more to have been born a boy....no...A man!!! Believe me there have been times; the advantages: the ability to build muscle easily(cause working out would take less time), run quicker(or maybe not), to have large hands to clobber foes. NAWWW.....God knew what he was doing when he made me a girl------Natural born fighter------that's what he saw. He knew that if THIS CHILD was a boy, he would fight everything, fear nothing and no one; he knew that once angry only the Hulk could be anywhere near as close to my destruction. It's a dangerous thing to have the existance of a nonfearing, no challenge too big and no foe too clumbersome type of person. Oh yeah he nkew a Fight Cluber when he saw little me; I'm not too much better. However, I DO have an extremely extrodinary high level of self-discipline,patience is growing by the day but as everyone does, I get angry as well and I'm afraid sometimes that the more and more I keep things in. I will one day lash out at someone either not deserving it or someone who does and I might get too comfortable acting on my feelings.
Of course self-discipline and patience comes with the job, after all ----- I am the oldest of three and I naturally feel responsible for everyone. Also, one needs to find self control and patience when the whole house is runned by your opinions. You should maintain a leveled head always, so I try my best but it could be a bad thing.....
How did I deal with this NEWS of my brother?
Well, I could have ran down the street and taken care of the punk but instaed I did what every guy or most guys do to relieve stress-----uhhhmmm...maybe the second to third thing they do.....EXCERSICE!!!!
I pumped iron until my veins were bulging from beneath skin; my veins green like kryptonite brightening with each arm curl. My heart the engine pumping adrenaline like lead through my body and all I could do....was left weights.