Sunday, November 21, 2010

strange things happening to me

well, not so strange and strange as in a good way. it's funny, i noticed a couple of days ago that i treat my facebook status like a radio show or a blog...which is odd cause i have a blog and don't even post in it. so, i decided that on this morning at 4:44am. i would post here..and i just noticed another odd thing...the last time..well this morning when i was posting on my "radio show" it was 2:22am and now here it is 2 hours and 24 minutes and about...well now it's 2 hours and 26 minutes seeing as it is now 4:46am.
but anyways, i'm up and thinking as always. i would say that i am making good use of the ol' organ up there. i've been psycho analyzing myself lately. i'm a bit nervous about my grand directorial debut and it's getting in the way of shooting my semester film. uh...it's not good. i mean my nervousness. the film is actually very good. :D but anyways, i'm just..i know i can do it. i know i can. it's just the getting started is all.
but i have it inside...i have the drive, but once monday comes i'll be pushed out there to act on what in there. my chase scene has yet to be done, for the reasons already stated and so my time to well...to film my actual short hand...directorial debut will be upon me. which is good..cause i need a kick in the pants.
i am very excited though....nervous to start but very excited nonetheless.
i had also been thinking about what i want to achieve since i have been a bit hesitant ,which is a word a don't like but let's face it that's what i've been, and i'm ambitious about my goals but hey why not be....
i think big, so why not dream big. the two go hand in hand. so, as i was thinking i thought about female directors and how they aren't prominent and how i want to be the first real prominent female director...i want that. ever since i was a kid, i ran with the boys. i was my own person but i could run with the best of them. so i want to work hard and break that record or be in that place hold.....

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